I don't want a divorce II NEW THREAD Pt 24

[JosephS]

I've been listening to the advice... I put a lot of pressure on myself and I feel a lot of.pressure when H texts. But he texted again tonight.... and I just swiped left. I didn't even read it.

I'm doing my best to go NC.

What if I'm having fun? Really having fun?? What if GAL for me is getting out and having 2 drinks? I'm not drinking every night. Im not drinking till I pass out. This election has been very polarizing with lifelong friends unfriending each other.
So it was twice this week that I went out- 1 drink on Wednesday which blwas made too strong and 2 drinks on Ssturday... it most likely will be zero next week. I spent 8hr doing yardwork this weekend. Unique photog class at the park. Had a really nice lunch out today. The weather was perfect and it's not often you get to enjoy outside dining this time of the year. Conversation really felt good and was intellectually stimulating.

I think I really like the guy from Saturday. I'm 100% up front that I'm separated... that I'm not D. I'm not pursuing him because I don't want to feel responsible for him getting hurt by anything unintentional. However, if he initiates I will spend time with him.

I'm being told repeatedly how done my H is... I'm doing my best to let him go live his life.

I'm also doing my best to live mine. Of course i appreciate it when anyone wants to pray for me.

If that’s your version of getting a life than you’re an adult and can make that decision. I just wanted to point out from an outsiders perspective it looks like self medicating more than getting a life. I would just caution that you are mindful of it.

And yes I do hope you are “truly ok” and just “truly getting a life”. I just hope you look back on some of what you say here and realize how all over the place you can be. Again not picking...or making a negative comment, but you argued for pages about a dating app and how you won’t like anyone and are just making friends. Etc. Now you’re out with these “friends” liking them, kissing them and drinking with them. Sure sounds like dating to me.

And I see you skipped over the individual therapy comment.

And I really don’t have any words over the presidental election comment...that was just....yeah

Good luck KC. I’ll probably continue to follow your post on the sidelines hopeful that everything turns out ok, but I won’t comment anymore.