Thank you again for your insight, i really appreciate hearing from as many vets and people as possibe. Everyone have or has their own sitch and point of view.
I couldn't think of another word to use than "normal" it is far from normal. NC is more for me, i used to regularly send her texts through the day just letting her know i was thinking of her. It is my way of letting myself heal.
No tests yet, and no texts either, S3 has an ear infection and had medication he had to take. W did not text once.
Had another great week with S3, We got out and about, went to the library, picked strawberries, we walked had an ice cream and generally spent a lot of time keeping busy.
Last night, as i always do, i talk to him and tell him what is happening, he loves being included and to know whats happening. anyway i told him that he was going to preschool tomorrow and that mummy would be collect him after preschool. He got upset and said that he didn't want to go and then said something that really upset me. He said that he doesn't love mummy.
I told him that she loves him and is looking forward to seeing him. I have never said a bad word about her to him and never will.
It was then than i realized that this is affecting him more than i could imagine. It also confirmed that I need to continue to be his rock.
This morning we went to drop to preschool and he wouldn't let go of me and gave me the biggest hug ever...it makes me cry even now writing this. I told him I love him and said be good for mummy.
I continue to GAL, read the boards and go to the gym and looking at taking up a hobby. I have IC next week which i am looking forward to.
