I've been listening to the advice... I put a lot of pressure on myself and I feel a lot of.pressure when H texts. But he texted again tonight.... and I just swiped left. I didn't even read it.
I'm doing my best to go NC.
What if I'm having fun? Really having fun?? What if GAL for me is getting out and having 2 drinks? I'm not drinking every night. Im not drinking till I pass out. This election has been very polarizing with lifelong friends unfriending each other. So it was twice this week that I went out- 1 drink on Wednesday which blwas made too strong and 2 drinks on Ssturday... it most likely will be zero next week. I spent 8hr doing yardwork this weekend. Unique photog class at the park. Had a really nice lunch out today. The weather was perfect and it's not often you get to enjoy outside dining this time of the year. Conversation really felt good and was intellectually stimulating.
I think I really like the guy from Saturday. I'm 100% up front that I'm separated... that I'm not D. I'm not pursuing him because I don't want to feel responsible for him getting hurt by anything unintentional. However, if he initiates I will spend time with him.
I'm being told repeatedly how done my H is... I'm doing my best to let him go live his life.
I'm also doing my best to live mine. Of course i appreciate it when anyone wants to pray for me.
