KC, not judging but I think you should watch the video on youtube, its called "Stop trying to make them love you" its by Affair Recovery. A guy named Samuel explains why he had his affair and why he looked for different things to make him feel whole. Baseball, sex, alchohol, drugs and eventually OW. I think it might help you In a couple ways, its helped me detatch and stick to my guns in a way that is free of anger or other negatives. I hope it helps you too.

Last edited by Steve_; 11/09/20 01:21 AM.
T:11
M:10
K: D5, S7
BD: 9/1/20
WW continues to break up and recon with OM.
I paid last fees and pushed the D 5/3/2021
Default Dissolution granted 8/5/21.
Glad my D was not busted.