Persistent Endurance (Part 8)

[Steve_]

Damn Curtis. I get some of the references now. Your sitch is rough. I was on the exact same road your on. 2 months I did all the things you did then OM drop last week, still did more to cherry pick and give myself hope. When she took our kids over there a couple days ago with OM that did it for me. I’m glad it did. I haven’t spoke to her since unless it’s business. I have given up on what i was doing. My son called my from her apartment last nite crying that he missed me. My stbxw blames me for not calling him. We let them do this to us. My NGS wanted to talk to her and comfort her she was crying to. When i talked to my son and we were done she put the phone back toward her i just hung up. We let them string us along. The reason she doesn’t want you Curtis is because she has you. She never lost you man. My W made a joke when I got served D papers “we can always get remarried, you would marry me again I know it” while I stood there and fought tears. This was A month ago she already was with OM. . I took it as hope, I see it now as utter disrespect.

I’m telling you that I would be in your shoes in two years, friend zoned and tolerated. Because of steve85, LH, Cwarrior telling me how this will play out if I continue, and her breaking the last piece of my heart hurting the kids this way I had to stop. My sitch seemed salvageable to me at first i garuntee if i kept the way i was recon would never ever happen. I’ve done everything for her to make it easy to come back in the past 2 months and she has not. Your getting positive signs but your messing them up by being so available having R talks, going down cheeseless tunnels. If you don’t value yourself, respect yourself and stop trying to make her love you this won’t ever change man. I don’t know you but I was just like you until I hit rock bottom a couple day’s ago. Give in to the end man. There will never be a new chapter unless you close this book. Draw a line in the sand and be man enough to stand behind it or you will just keep hurting yourself. Don’t backslide on self respect. Then you can begin to DB later. I thought I was DBing but I wasn’t. I will take months of me just radio silencing her and GAL and LRT before she maybe processes one tiny shard of reality and that’s okay with me time is on my side and I don’t know if you are of faith but I feel like god is on my side too. Curtis She will never, ever, ever, process the loss as long as she hasn’t lost you man. Don’t be afraid, you can do it. We can do it.