KitCat you and I are really similar in how attached we are to our spouses. I am so sorry your going through this, I know it probably doesn't help much but I also cant help but blame this 100% on me too. It cant be the case, eventually the spouses will see it was them too but I think you and I need to let go of control on that who knows when that might happen. Probably no time soon. Sorry but I since last night ive accepted it after spending the day with no kids. I don't know what point you will get there, but it will come. I feel better I have let go of trying to save this, but it still hurts a lot either way for the time being.
T:11 M:10 K: D5, S7 BD: 9/1/20 WW continues to break up and recon with OM. I paid last fees and pushed the D 5/3/2021 Default Dissolution granted 8/5/21. Glad my D was not busted.