I'm sorry you're having a rough night. (I am too, nothing to do with my H, flipping out about the state of our country, but that is a whole other story line!!!)
When you're feeling like this-- can you focus on the reasons you're better off alone? Do you have any go-to self- care options you can pull on? Comfort TV show or movie, food item, book, cuddly blanket and cup of tea? We all have these days and the more you can find those tried-and-true methods to pull yourself out of it, the better.
((KC))
Thank you....
I was in such a bad spot last night that I pulled out some cross stitch project that I finished in 2011... lol... pulled out my sewing machine and finally got it constructed into a wall hanging. Its rare I sew anything as its just a pain to pull out the machine and establish some work space. It turned out fantastic.... and it kept me busy for hours.
I've been so checked out for months. Don't get me wrong. I did vote yesterday. But its rare if the TV is on at all post BD. I haven't watched the news in 8mo. Between BD... stress of COVID and the riots earlier this year (and who knows what's to come next).... I completely disengaged. Its TOOO PAINFUL.
If you remember back with my H's texts - he does not have internet... he does not own a tv.... THESE THINGS are complete 180's for us both. Now I have internet AND frankly he does too --- its called his cell phone. He just doesn't have traditional computer/internet. He was online gaming TONS when he lived here. I let him be as it was how he decompressed from his long commute and 12hr days.
Now he fills his time staying busy in his "workshop" at his new home. I'm sure he is happier staying physically busy than glued in front of tv/computer screen. But he is equating his happiness to NOT being with me... AND he gets to be playful with OW... his life is grand.
UGH... now I'm right back it. Sorry I will get my crap together in a couple of days again.
