I wanted to pop in before I have to move on to my next Monday to-do item (my Mondays are so long), but now I've run out of time. I still want to thank you all so much for your encouragement. I want to go through these posts more carefully and reply soon! Wayfarer, I need to make it back to the Newcomers board to read your update—I've been thinking of you and hope you're doing well. I am so grateful for every one of you. I still don't know how I'm going to get through this next phase, but I choose to believe you all that I will.
H was gone for a week, starting on the day he knew I would be served. He has been back and in and out for a few days now, and the first time he came through my room, I said hello—it was a polite reflex, another human entering my space. Of course H has still not addressed the fact that he filed for an annulment, or that I was served at all; instead, he asked me where we buy our dryer sheets today. He couldn't find them at the store. I didn't know whether to laugh or scream. It's just all so, so strange, where their minds go! We're probably right on track for his acting "normal" until he realizes I'm not going to play along, at which point he will explode. All of this has made me realize I'm not fully detached because I still, deep down, feel partially responsible for his feelings and actions when I should not. Something to be aware of and focus on rewiring...
