UGH... still this morning.... its like I WANT to/NEED to answer his question. "what do we have to offer each other". Its the last thing he said and its stuck in my head like a cheesey campaign slogan.
Sure, I've mentally made that list... erased it... wrote it again... scrached it out...
I know I cannot say that ONE thing and he suddenly goes --- hmmm, your right. That does make sense and work. So knowing that I sit on my hands and do nothing.
Anything I do type he then reads and files away. If I leave him in silence eventually his subconscious will stew on the fact that I must have agreed with him... and then he is left to think all the reasons I am not right for agreeing with him. Only when he comes through this on his own might he even come to the realization that I knew him all along. He did not suddenly change to this new person he thinks he is now. I already met him years ago. I accepted him as being the best version of himself --- AND, I did not run. I supported him. He had the latest hunting gear and I did not compete with him when he wanted to use half of his vacation time for himself and hunting. He dreams of back packing Brooks Ridge for a year.... I can man down the fort alone and make that happen. You want a partner in crime on your adventure I would do what I needed to your biggest assest and not hold you back.
I get it.
You love being playful with OW. You feel OW will compliment you better on your Alaska adventure.
There is nothing I can do to change your mind. You will either come to the conclusion yourself or you won't. In the meantime I cannot contact you and I have to go about living my own life.
