Also, in response to "what have I done that requires repentance?" I feel that walking out of the house and filing for divorce requires repentance on my part. As I've said, it was a reactive, impetuous decision made out of extreme pain. That is not the kind of woman that I want to be. I am not proud of the way I ended the marriage. I owed it to DH and the children to hang in there, not bounce on marriage therapy. Yes, DH did a lot to cause that pain. He contributed to the situation. But he was working with a therapist and trying to make it better when I left. And I hate that I turned tail and ran.
But, as I said earlier, I have asked repeatedly for forgiveness and the ball is in his court now.
