Good job on the brief responses, keep it up. He may ramp up the temp checking so be ready for that. If he does he's just checking to make sure you are still plan B. So continue with your brief responses or non-responses to show him you're no one's plan B!
THANKS... Sadly I just read this a few minutes ago.
Let me just say I was SOOOOO not ready for the load of bricks he dropped off with me this morning. I mean its been months. Months of me working on myself. Months of me thinking... ugh if he would only open up and talk to me... And, then he does.... and I realize I'm so under prepared.
H: You're not happy
H: It wasn't just you. My failure was I was trying to be something I was not. I was trying to fit in an element that was not me. I sold you on someone I wasn't and I failed you at that.
H: I was angry all the time and I lashed out at everyone including my own kids. I won't be in that position again. I failed myself more than anyone else failed me. And I now see things differently, I know what it was doing to me and I won't let it happen again.
H: I have also learned something else... I enjoy playing... really enjoy it... acting like a child/goofy/fun. But you couldn't play. [???? this was the hardest to follow as we used to be very goofy and had fun but I will admit in the later years I was just so focused on parenting and work and got so incredibly stuck in my head... I didn't even go to my own family's Christmas Eve party last year. My H went alone. I really withdrew from my H and from everyone. So I'm sure I sucked the life out of things then stuck in my own quagmire leaving my H to feel neglected and confused. I own that... I own that for sure.]
H: I am at peace. I have refocused my priorities. Do you want me to look back? What do we have to offer each other?
It soooo incredibly much to take it. As much as my mind is digesting all this I am quite peaceful. I'm not agitated but more perplexed. I still have plans this weekend and will continue to move about as I have been doing.
I would be lying though if I didn't say I was mulling over the "what do we have to offer each other".
I know I know I know.... everyone here will tell me to ignore. It means absolutely nothing.
