WAW w/Exit Affair or WW? - Don't Want Divorce (2)

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I definitely made a mistake snooping last night. The opportunity presented itself and despite the warnings/rules I gave in to temptation and confirmed what I was told / strongly suspected. But now I'm hurting badly. It feels like I regressed back to 5 months ago during AP/OM1. I had made a lot of progress over the months but am hurting personally again...and also worried about the kids. At least back then the they weren't exposed to W's OM or in the same house. Guess I still have a lot of work to do.