Since a very long time I too had a difficult evening last Saturday. Don't know why, it just hit me in the car, while driving to get my children from their sports.
I also had a lot of times when I just wanted to go to him and shake him up, this is simply because sometimes we can't understand how they can hurt someone so much.
This is not the person you married and loved all these years.Try to look at him in a different way now.
Physically it may be your husband, but spiritually he is a different person now. These are the exact words my father in law uses. I see he is my son from the outside, but I don't recognize him anymore from the inside.
If you accept this, it will gradually get better.
Be strong, work on yourself, believe me, it will get better! We are all there for you and for each other!
