Anyway, back to you. It seems like things keep getting side tracked. Are you doing OK emotionally? What is the best way for us to help?
Thanks for asking. I'm OK on the outside, people think I'm doing well, but on the inside I'm still a bit of a mess. Upset with myself that after 32 years I turned out to be an unfit husband. Working hard to fill my day. Trying to make new friends because all my old friends were married to my ex's best friends, and she's been talking trash about me to these girlfriends.
The worst is yet to come, I fear, as we approach the end of the divorce process. It'll get me down, especially the final signing of the papers. That's just the kind of sensitive guy I am.
But I'm slowly coming to terms with the princples of DB. I've been commenting on other posts and it really helps me congeal the concepts in my own mind when I get to talk with others.
Best way to help is keep engaging with me (and staying patient if I backslide) as I come to grips that my old life is never coming back. I still have dreams at night that this is all a dream, by the way.
