Just dropping a quick line of support. You are a very strong person - in case no one has told you that recently.
Our situations could not be more different. You have a live insight into someone in crisis that many here including myself do not have or may never have. The fact that your S is still willing to communicate with you is remarkable.
I am not really sure what to say more than that, because my sit is so different. However I think that difference offers the opportunity to learn and step outside of our own perspectives.
Don't forget to take time for you. Give yourself a break sometimes. It's ok to do that too
