You keep posting variations on this question, and it's not something the board can help you with. You are essentially asking the board to read your ex-wife's mind, and mindreading is A) very often wrong and B) unhealthy.
You might want to research "ambiguous loss" and look for resources to help as you try to create closure.
What are you doing to create a happy, healthy life for yourself?
Rose, as I've now been on this forum for 2 months, I've come to the realization that, for me at least, the healing process involves understanding through dialogue, not forgetting or burying things.
I'm not asking for mindreading, if you carefully read my words. I'm asking for other WAWs or LBSes to relate their experience. Of course, it's their experience not mine, but still ... want me to fully heal? Let me settle my heart. Let me ponder others' words. I happen to be a thinker and can't just tell myself, "turn off the brooding!" I just don't work that way, perhaps the way you do.
And if my ex ever DOES talk, I'll relate that here as well.
Rest assured that I am doing quite well now. My weight is down, I'm ensuring that my appearance is always good. I have a new job and am busting my butt to do well, and I'm doing well. I've been connecting with my son, who is the only one of my three kids living with me. I am also growing my social life, although technically that's not an improvement since BD day but an improvement since Covid lockdowns began.
But once again, thanks for being your usual contrarian self!
