You are giving me too much credit. Me realizing that I need to take care of myself has come very slowly. I have been in this situation for over a 1.5 years. I discovered the A in May 2019 and I have been struggling ever since. I literally feel broken at the moment and have hit rock bottom. I left her for a week in Aug 2019, when I had definitive proof of the A and came back too soon, for a number of different reasons. I regret that decision more than any other in my life. I should never have come back.
