How are things Alison? Better, I hope. You sounded pretty bitter in that post about being put on a shelf. I felt like that a lot with my H. Like he didn't want me, he just didn't want anyone else to have me either. I hope things have improved since then? I can recommend some podcasts which might be helpful: Foreplay Radio, couples and sex therapy. There is a lot about pursuing distancing dynamics, both sexually and emotionally. It might help to see that these dynamics are present in all relationships. There are also a few episodes on female sexual pursuers which you might find helpful. Look after yourself xx