Divorce and Acceptance part 5

[Pax_luv]

Hi friends,
Thank you so much for your comments and good wishes. While I’m not very interactive (I’m more of an observer), I have learned so much from each one of you and I’m so grateful for everyone who has chimed in on my threads over the last 5 years.

I have a feeling my ex isn’t going to fade into the night. Narcissism at its finest. Not until he feels he’s been victorious will he let me go. This I know.
I actually read through the draft judgment that his attorney wrote up and there were wayyyy too many holes. I’ve learned that I can leave nothing up to interpretation because he’s going to be actively looking for ways to discredit or poke holes in the agreement. I still expect him to sue me.

As mentioned, I’ve not shared many details in depth here out of protection.

Gerda- yes, to everything you’ve said. Being married to the guy was tough. I thought I had enough strength to endure those tough times/ his tough personality. He pushed everyone aside and selfishly I thought I could prove to him that I would be there for him, that he didn’t have to be so callous. <-Hahahah I laugh now.
I held my own for 4 years of the marriage before he threw me away like yesterday’s garbage. And then when I didn’t go away like he wanted, then everything hit the fan. My god it’s been a rough 5 years. I’m exhausted.

I’m also frustrated. I had so much hope for freedom and so much hope for stability, but I have to persevere for longer now. I’m so tired. I just know he’s not going to go away. I always ignore the pokes and never give him the satisfaction. Communication is very very sparse and when he’s nuts I don’t engage at all. Just ignore.

He’s done some things recently that has made my life more difficult and I’m frustrated that I have to redo things... I’m being vague there, but it’s just something I’m dealing with.


Finally, here’s a good laugh for you....
The beanie made it into the draft of the judgment.

You can’t make it up.