Detachment is hard when you're in the thick of it. You mentioned the fear you are feeling. What are afraid of A? I can promise you that what you are afraid of isn't as bad as it feels right now?
You have to try to accept that fact that you are likely to separate and probably even divorce. Things have to get worse before they will get better.
As for her birthday, yeah your kids are young so you will have to get a little something from them. I know it sux but unfortunately it is what it is.
She may be testing you but odds are she just doesn't care about anyone but herself.
I'm sorry A. This $hit isn't easy. The feeling you have right now doesn't last forever.
Thanks LH, I agree with you that it doesn't last forever. I have to take on this feeling head on and get past it.
True enough, my kids were asking me where's mommy when they got back home. I just said, "Mommy's out with her friends."
It really seems like heading to S or D is the path now. And I'm not sure if that will put her at rock bottom or me. I need to be strong to take this sheet and be there for my kids.
M(36), W(36), D(6), D(4) M-7, T-8 Bomb Drop - Nov 28, 2019 W requested separation - Sep 30, 2020
