Close to a week since she started the separation messages. We are back to being cordial and friendly and she didn't bring up any R talks at all.
Now my mind is not replaying that scene that frequently but the only nagging inner question remain; "When is she going to make her next move?" I shouldn't even be giving oxygen to this thought but I'm struggling to get it out of my head.
She joined me to visit a post wedding celebration of a buddy of mine which i extended the invite to her before that incident. All went well, had fun with the kids at the beach, she was talking to me on a whole range of topics from covid to her recent outing with her colleagues (she and her colleagues (all males) tried to walk 36 clicks coast to coast in a single day, failed though).
She interacted well with my buddies; talking mostly about her new tattoos. My buddies knew about my situation but kept their cool and did not rip off her face at the spot because they respected me and what I'm doing right now (standing for the marriage).
She also had a minor covid scare as she received a notification from our health ministry that she was in a vicinity of a covid patient while she was out shopping as part of contact tracing efforts. Here's the thing that baffled me; she was advised to stay home and work from both the government ministry and HR but this morning, she left the house with her laptop, which i assumed she is opting to work anywhere else other than at home with me.
I'm working in my study room, door closed and I am not harassing her in any way whatsoever. Am i that repulsive? Or maybe she's off to meet OM to work together, who knows?
Just simply cannot understand why she's rebelling so much. Is that her way to portray her regressive teenager expression?
M(36), W(36), D(6), D(4) M-7, T-8 Bomb Drop - Nov 28, 2019 W requested separation - Sep 30, 2020
