How am I going to do this? Should I do this?

[Core]

Core, for the past two weeks she has been incredibly distant and still wants to sit and have dinner together. It hurts like hell and I do not believe that I can emotionally handle being in this limbo. She keeps saying that we need to rebuild a friendship. Nothing about rebuilding our M. I think you were the one that commented about not understanding the need for Lesbians to remain friends after the end of their relationships, I think this is what she is hoping for.

As a kid, I imagined hell as burning fire. If there is a hell, its probably more like the emotional hell you, I and the others go through in our sitches. The saying goes something like the WW wants their cake and to eat it too. They are living in fantasy. You may know this already and it hurts to hear and it hurts to tell you that she has a Plan A (OW). She wants to hang on to Plan B (you) just in case. You will be strung along, chasing breadcrumbs. Now no matter what, you want to be Plan A, for yourself. Whether she ever comes around or not, become Plan A for yourself.

I can't do it. I've read several posts on here about the emotional torture the LBS goes through during this limbo phase. I do not want to subject myself to that. But how do I muster the strength to walk away when it is the last thing in the world that I want.

Imagine you're in the military, alone in the woods, surrounded by opposing forces. Do you want to be captured and tortured? Will you fight your way out, escape or call in for support? You don't know it but you have the strength. It may be hard to find. Don't do it alone, get support. Here, IC, one or two close contacts. You can escape the woods with support. Maybe the opposition surrenders.

This may very likely be the hardest thing you ever do. Dont do it alone. We'll stretch you here if youre willing to face your feelings and yourself.

As an internet stranger, I care about you getting through this and becoming stronger, I'm sure those close to you want that even more. Feel the pain, feel the fear, talk through it, know youre not alone and persevere.