Need guidance/help

[Mumin]

I can relate to the underwear. But thats really nothing compared to what some here have experienced.
Myself included.
Keep reading other stitches and DB techniques.

Detach and stop snooping. Sometimes you will take steps backwards, it happens to all of us.
I know it's hard but you need to keep working on it to improve.


I am assuming you don't really mean you are giving up when you say throw in the towel.
Keep improving yourself and only focus on that for some time (months at least).
You really don't have to make your choice anytime soon, weather she chooses you or not isn't up to you.
But only focusing on your personal growthand happiness , knowing your boundaries and preparing for the worst is the best you can do. No matter the outcome.