I highly suggest you read Divorce Remedy. A line from Michele distinctly came to mind when reading your post:
Your smallest consistent actions will mean more than any words.
I'd say it's time for you to reassess your relationship with alcohol.
Your W brought an anniversary card and was willing to go on a walk with you. That's huge. She isn't 100% checked out IMO.
You should follow the Last Resort Technique. It's 3 easy steps: 1. Stop pursuing 2. Get a Life 3. Wait and See.
The most important thing is to detach and think with your brain and not your heart. You have to do what works, not what you want to work or hope will work. So I don't think you broke DB by asking her to go on a walk if it seemed to go OK. Just don't plan on pursuing all the time with any reasonable rate of success.
I remember the pain of the ring coming off and bank accounts being split. In retrospect, those are just things. You must be indifferent to the indifferent things in your life if you are hoping to put your heart into something meaningful.
Take of your kids, become attractive, and be consistent.
H 34 W 29 BD 3/12/18 Divorce Busted Spring 19
It is not things that bother us, but the stories we tell ourselves about things.
