Today is rough and I'm on the verge of breaking down. The conversation with the W kept replaying on my head. The NGS in me kept asking myself what went wrong? I guess a few things went wrong especially that push message. Now I just need to dust it off and take it one step at a time.
I still have a lot of fear in me that I'm still trying to get rid of. Mostly it's around the fact that my kids won't have a complete family with her out of the picture.
Laws over here in my country are favoring women. I'm financially stable but my wife isn't as her MLC-type spending habits are quite out of control. If we do the D route I supposed I will be liable to pay quite some alimony. And custody-wise, it's usually favoring the women as well.
I'm thinking of starting to engage a L to discuss my options. It feels like a ticking time bomb now; not sure when the W will announce that she will move out. If may be in a few days, a few weeks or a few months. Who knows?
We are supposed to head to the beach this coming saturday to spend some time with the kids together but now I'm not sure if I want her to be there.
M(36), W(36), D(6), D(4) M-7, T-8 Bomb Drop - Nov 28, 2019 W requested separation - Sep 30, 2020
