Thank you for the brutal advice here and i really appreciate it. Yes, I screwed up by sending her that last message, sort of like a hail mary to me but now after calming down further I've realised what a stupid message that was.
When I woke up this morning, all of my thoughts were, "How will the kids take this? How soon will she move out?". It kept replaying in my head. I supposed that's normal because this is the first time she's talking about divorcing/separation straight in my face.
I'm not sure what is next in store for me. I will try to be as normal as possible and focus my energy on the kids and myself instead.
One more thing she mentioned last night was that she said: "I will let you have the kids though." To me, it seems that not only is she abandoning me, she's going to abandon the kids too. This is not the W that I knew, previously the kids were the world to her. Makes me sad that whatever she's going thru now is making her a totally different person. MLC or WAS, it doesn't matter anymore. She's no longer the same person I've married 7 years ago.
And I would like to seek more advice on this new phase for me. Apart from GAL, focus on the kids and myself, what else can I do to get me thru this excruciating phase?
M(36), W(36), D(6), D(4) M-7, T-8 Bomb Drop - Nov 28, 2019 W requested separation - Sep 30, 2020