I do not work Fridays in the office, I work from home and will do housework, also. On Thursday afternoons I am so ready for the weekend. Then I just do nothing.
I am not comfortable doing a bunch of socializing with covid, and I am very happy to read, catch up on the phone with friends and family and do grocery shopping. But that doesn’t take all weekend.
On Friday, H continued his home improvements by replacing a toilet seat. I thanked him.
Yesterday I saw him for one brief second after he came home from walking with friends. Later I left and browsed a bookstore for a couple of hours, came home and ate dinner.
I am very grateful that I do not have a “mean, volatile” man living here. But I will tell you, I can struggle with someone who is my “roommate” that may see or not see periodically. I don’t think he has anywhere to go since OW is out of the country. He’s pleasant enough and that makes it confusing. I try not to wonder what he is doing, but weekends hurt. It is so beautiful today I would have loved to taken a drive WITH him just to see things. D25 was working and I honestly just wanted to lie in bed all day. It seemed like an effort to get moving. He doesn’t see that though, I am busy when he’s around.
Instead, he has been in the room all day and I will have dinner with D25 later.
I ask my IC if he wants to be divorced why does he not do anything and she reminds me he is not logical in MLC. I certainly am not going to fulfill his request. So I don’t know if it is a waiting game and he figures he told me twice so it’s done, or if 180’s are having any effect.
I do see some action, when I do not see or speak to him, he seems to touch base but seeking me out in a vague way, just to say hi as he walks by or ask about the pets. But goodness, here we are almost 17 months in, it is a MARATHON.
