Need advice on stubborn W

[AKuei]

Thanks for the encouragement BL! I can't describe how grateful I am to have stumbled on this place. My sitch is similar with a few here and by reading and feeling their pain, I can better relate that Im truly not alone in this.

And yes! I'm so looking forward to 2021! I have tonnes of things planned up for myself and the kids! I can also say that it will be even more awesome if W is around to do all things together as a family but Ill be just as fine without her. I have to fake it till I make it. The fear and anxiety will not be completely gone but as time passes and we get better at detaching, we probably won’t die from it!

I feel like I’ve come a Long way and I’m a different person now; I’m sure I’m a better father to my kids because they adore me! I’m getting more positive by the day (but you know some days are just brutal because emotions are a b****). No matter what happens, I WON’T DIE!

But that being said, I still have a lot of work to do. I’m still affected by my W’s action to a certain extent sometimes. Like I assumed she already has a EA/PA even though I do not have hard evidence (I’m stopping myself from snooping) and sometimes my bad thoughts will appear out of nowhere to put me down. It’s tough but I Guess it’s part of my journey?