Do you know Steve, out by 23:00 latest and usually up at 6am with the kids!
I must say im finding myself stressed, like in a constant state of stress and in not even noticing it anymore. I feel like there is still so much unresolved and the prospect of being responsible for a house and being a sole owner with no back up is scary. Im just not sure i can go on like this for the next 2 years you know and its been 6 months only and we are so clearly moving towards selling the house and D in the end.
Today has been emotional, i for some reason got upset once H left after our conversation about selling the house. I want to sell the house, it makes sense, its actually too big for me to maintain and it needs renovation and i wouldn't have that cash anyway. So logic says it needs to happen and what will happen after will happen and outside of my control, all i control i what type of house i buy. I found it a little controlling on his part to pry about my work and whether i have been going for jobs that bring in more money. I will do eventually but at the moment im not in a place to take on more responsibility at work anyway. I no longer know where he is at or where he is living, but he is certainly portraying a picture of someone who is content.
