Need advice on stubborn W

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2020 is really a dark year so far.

That's an understatement! It's been brutal. I often hear people who don't know my sitch say that at work or in casual conversation in reference to COVID and think to myself "you have no idea...". I'm feeling more confident lately about 2021 every day though.

I really hope I can have an awakening soon so that I can breathe better and carry on with my awesome life. Putting all these nightmares behind me.

Keep focusing on you and your kids. It'll get better. I'm not fully there yet, but I can feel the difference a few months has made. You'll get there. Has to feel good to be in shape! I lost 30lbs in the few few months and was amazed how many people on here said the exact same thing (20-30lbs).