(((Kindly))) you know how things always seem worse at night, and then in the morning a little better, a little more handle-able? Allow yourself to have all these feelings, but don’t let them run away with you. It’s normal to get overwhelmed sometimes. We spend so much time and energy taking on everything, taking control of our lives, and it can be empowering but also draining and sometimes lonely. It does seem like emotions flare up when we’re entering a new phase of healing or leaving one behind. You’re not alone! You’ve got us, and this neighbor is looking out for you. Maybe he saw H wandering around—ha! Seriously, though, it’s probably nothing. And you can always keep your phone close by. Do you feel comfortable enough with any of your neighbors to exchange phone numbers?
Funnily enough, my H has started disappearing overnight after being home all the time, which I found annoying. It is a little weird to notice he’s now spending nights somewhere else. Who knows what drives them to change patterns, to hide in rooms or avoid the house all together? Focus back on you. You’ll be okay. It’s okay to have a hard night. It will get better. Can you put on a show that makes you happy or listen to a podcast to take your mind off things for a bit?
