Hope you are well. You ve ready my sitch, kids involved. Nearly 6 months in and very slowly im dropping the rope, asking h not to stay at the house anymore significant for me, telling the kids is significant.
Do you know what i wish for the most now is that our financial situation wasnt so tangled and messy so i could buy him out of the house and change the locks. That would be the easiest thing for me and for him and for the boys. There would be no more confusion, no more stringing along.
You speak of unconditional love, and i can tell you you will experience it when you have kids, what we have with our partners is love, also co dependency. Its that emotional and physical codependency that you need to get rid of because you know what you can love someone without being with them! In fact when you love someone you let them go to be happy even if thats not with you and you wish them well. Love is not selfish you see....anyways this is only my view of things and thats what im working through, this is my fate, i accept it, i dont blame h or anyone else, i lm trying to get to a stage where i wish him well and that means letting go.
As far as D is concerned it really doesnt hold me back at the moment, as i have no interest in dating and want to concentrate on me and the kids and being whole on my own.
Is D going to make a difference to how you feel now?
