We had a talk. He says he needs to focus on his own life and issues right now, that this is bad timing and that he feels he should put an end to all contact but right now it might make him feel worse, in a callous sense.
The attraction thing - it really cuts deep to read that. He said today what keeps him going is how my feelings changed, how I went from not being attracted to him, to totally changing the way I felt. This was all before OW - it had to do with dropping long-held resentments, and again seeing the person I had married. He wants to believe it can happen.
M:49 H:49 T:20 M:18 D:16 D:14
EA: Feb 2019-May 2020 Separated: Mar-early Aug 2020 H asked to reconcile: Jun 2020 EA relapse: Oct/Nov 2020 Recon #2: since Nov 2020