Turning lots of corners - DaB35 Part 8

[DaB35]

Hi AS, thanks for your comment - it means a lot! Hope you are well.

I totally get the whole 'not knowing about' it until I was on here and subsequently spent time looking into it. It's eye-opening when you realise some traits were in your personality, but from a stage of learning and willingness to change that's half the battle of just cutting those traits out once you're aware of them. It feels great doesn't it - like you're lighter somehow.

Yes I hear what you're saying about nice guys wanting to change. Some don't of course, but I believe I'm in the 'want to change' camp.

Realised that I need to up my intake even more. I've realised I'm undereating by a few calories after having spoken to someone at the gym and done some macro calculators online. Hopefully once I rectify that , it'll reap even more rewards. Just getting back into using all the machines after lockdown - I had to reduce the weights when I first went back slightly as I didn't want to injure myself - but gradually increasing now after having gone more regularly.

Had an hour long chat with my old college friend. Didn't talk about XW. Just talked about our lives in the present, jobs, hobbies, etc. I made a real effort to listen and react more in the conversation and it was much more enjoyable; there were no lulls in the conversation at all.

Actually doing facetime was a first for me. I never did it because, due to avoidant personality traits, I was afraid of having my likeness on the screen for such a long time. I just forgot I was there yesterday. Feel so much more active in my head in a good way. Definitely low stress now. I think back even two/three years ago when I had alopecia in my beard and psoriasis. I'd never felt stress before at school/college so didn't know what it was. Then when I thought about my ailments, that obviously made me more stressed and made it worse! So glad I'm out of that rut.

Making some time to chill out too. I've just taken random days off work to the end of the year. I have planned to do things some days like a deep clean of my car's interior or visit a relative, but other days i'm just going to relax completely, go for a walk, phone off, computer off, iPad off, yoga/stretching, books and music only.