Thank you. I wrote a text to send and then couldn’t. I looked here and see your response. It is like how in therapy, they say write everything down to release it. I realize I was wanting to tell family out of anger toward H. This definitely is not ideal.
I will save the contents of the message and use a variation when I speak with them.
I am doing some indoor cycling after work when I get home. I always work up a sweat when I do.
I know I mentioned last night and not asking if he wanted any dinner that D and I were getting. When he came home from idk, I was in my room with the door closed. He went into his room and left the door open for a long time (usually shut right away). I never engaged.
This is different, this anger. I thought I was mad, before. Now I realize it was only a taste. As he is in full blown mlc, I am full blown angry. It feels good. I will not take it out on him, but NC is ok, and I am embracing it.
