I don’t want to play happy family. I don’t even want to be friends right now. I want space to heal.
But am I being unreasonable?
I don't think it is unreasonable at all. I (finally) know EXACTLY how you feel, though it took me a really long time to get there. You deserve to take the space you need to heal and do what it takes to be the best mama you can to those four little ones.
That being said, also don't feel like you have to decide right now what will work for you forever. When is your next kid birthday? if it is right around the corner then by all means, figure out something to get the space you need so that you can properly focus on your child when you are with them. If you have a few months, maybe give it some time and see how you feel as you get closer.
(((SAGE))) I have been thinking so much of you. You are such a giving, kind, incredible, empathetic soul. Your H is a dumb@ss IMHO.
xoxo M
Me (46) H (42) M:14 T:18, D9 & D11 4/19 - 12/19: series of escalating BDs 9/20 - present: R and piecing
