I am struggling with something and could use some advice.

We had a child’s birthday recently and spent the day together as a family. It was so hard for me. I don’t like the thought of the children not having both of us on their special day, but it took such a toll on me that I don’t think I can do it again. At least not in the short term.

How did you navigate this if you have been through it before? I am working on my boundaries and this feels like a boundary that I need to make. My kids need me to be my best self and spending this much time with H the way he currently is sets me back emotionally.

I don’t want to play happy family. I don’t even want to be friends right now. I want space to heal.

But am I being unreasonable?