Not Ready To Give Up!

[INeedGAL]

Journaling: I need to vent about the OW. I had an opportunity to speak with a couple of the XW's of marriages she's broken up and it was eye opening. Basically, she does this for sport and targets long term relationships, I figure it's because she hopes the H is heading into an MLC and she can play on that and she's very good at what she does. It's nothing for her to have 2 or 3 men going at one time, kind of like throwing spaghetti at the wall and seeing what sticks.

I'm not excusing H's role in this at all, he has choices here. But I am p!ssed that these are real lives she's playing with, mine, H's and more importantly D9's and our divorce will be just another trophy she's collected. Once she has him she's going to start working to hook the next. I'm p!ssed that H can't see this. He knows about the other marriages, he knows a few of the couples personally, he knows what she is overall.

Last year H would come up with the most random stuff. One day he out of the blue informed me that I am a narcissist. Another time he accused me of trying to limit his time with D9 which really surprised me and I explained not true, that on school nights she needs to be in bed at a certain time other than that have at it. During conversations he would accuse me of thinking I was smarter than him, that I had all the answers (boy I wish I did). Then there were the times he was flat out nasty with me which was really uncharacteristic. I know realize a lot of these things were things they were discussing.

A couple of weeks before BD2, OW (who'd removed all her social media accounts in Jan but recently started an IG account) posted a picture she knew I would recognize and know she'd gone on H's annual boys trip last October. Now, before shutting down her account in January I saw enough to know that she was always very careful to make sure she posted nothing that would give away an A she was involved in, yet this picture was so in my face an reckless. After learning more about her and reflecting on this picture I realize she did it hoping that I would eventually see it and that I'd go ballistic and create a crack so she could get her foot back in the door and show H what a nasty b!tch I am.

I fell for it hook, line and sinker.

So, I've decided that from this point on I don't care what she does, she will never get another reaction from me. She doesn't exist to me anymore except that she's the OW and she's not my problem here, H is. The OW is his problem. This is one of my first 180's, no reaction to the OW, in fact don't mention her at all.