It's awful. Trust me, I KNOW. But you'll get through it. Hang in there. You're going to be alright. Hearing from people on this forum has really helped me so you might consider sticking with it.
Me:39 Ex-W:37 M:7 T: 9 S:6 D:3 BD/IHS/Confirm EA/PA: Feb '20 OM1 affair ends: May '20 W/OM2 & moves out: June-July '20 W files for D: Jul20 OM2 confirmed: 9/2020 Divorced: May '21