Need advice on stubborn W

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Ahkuei,

When you didn't acknowledge the anniversary, did you W picked a fight purposely or show up with actions that will grind your gears a little?

No fighting or grinding of gears. Neither of us said a word about it. I was very aware of the date and assume she was as well. Though, not sure if you've read my sitch but W moved out so had the kids most of the day, only saw her briefly for drop-off, and my W has shown little indecision or regret to date common in other sitches on this board.

My W simply threw in work overtime and skipped dinner with the kids and me altogether today which to me felt like she did it on purpose. A little bummed out by this but like you said, life goes on.

A lot of people on here talk about no expectations - assuming the worst from your spouse and being surprised (if not skeptical) at positive signs - it took me awhile to fully understand that, and easier said than done.

I just hope that I have it in me to see this ordeal thru and emerge a better person. Generally I'm fine but then anxiety sets in (which is mostly triggered by my W actions that threw me off-guard) I tend to overthink and when i overthink I panic, and my mental strength just falls like dominos.

But I'm glad to say that I'm fixing back the dominos faster now haha...

It'll come - just keep focusing on you and your kids!