Does anyone ever feel this is a futile effort? I am currently experiencing total ignoring from H. Remember, he still lives here.
Hi PLC,
Sadly, oh yes....probably too often. I have been ignored now for probably close to a month and a half straight except for the 3 times he decided to loose his mind on me. The ignoring while in the same house used to make me feel sick to my stomach but now I’m doing a much better job (most days) of embracing the full me time and not getting into any conversations with him that will derail every time anyway.
I find for me keeping busy at home or going out keep me sane....so basically GAL as much as I can...as you know.
Originally Posted by PLC
I still love this man and I hope for a reconcilation. Every day, I continue to gal, (I mean he makes it easy, since he ignores me) I know that time is a gift and I need to use it wisely.
Today, I just feel dumb.
PLC
I feel the same way, but some days he/reconciling feels soooo far away. This is something I continue to work on. Getting frustrated with myself, or feeling dumb for knowing the answers but needing to hear it anyway, showing emotion, going over the same thing again and again... I’m trying to stop judging myself and how I feel, or even what I need at certain times. We’ve been blindsided and there is no handbook on this. I’m making a pact to let myself feel what I feel and move on...move on for me right now.
A big help for me finding a little peace of mind was realizing that I don’t have to act on things right away, I don’t have to adhere to his timeline and there’s “future” stuff I don’t need the answer to right now. I can just let things be. This allows me to not run around in my head or in reality out of fear.
Let feelings of defeat wash over you and realize, as awful as it feels, that right now you and H aren’t even playing in the same game. (((PLC)))
