No changes on WAW - Pack_19 Part II

[Pack_19]

LH, thanks for your words. I am trying to be detached from this situation, I am trying to be happy and leave W aside but I keep coming back to memories and the value of our kids.

My W being with other men IS a deal breaker for me, I cannot be with someone who does not share those values with me. I dont want to control what she does, I want her to be clear. If she is I can then file with peace of mind, if she keeps hiding things and treating me like a criminal I cannot file based on a rumor.

I can only control my happiness, that is very clear. I do not want to spend the rest of my life chasing a woman who treats me like a bad person and disrespects me even in front of my children. Maybe she has changed more than I could ever imagine, or maybe she was always this way and married me because we had a son and it was "the right thing to do".

I am going to stay way and silent for 15 days starting yesterday and if I do not hear anything from her I will ask my L to change the S for a D. I went to Ikea yesterday, I am renewing my entire bedroom, all in. If we are going to sleep with other people I will do it in a new bed and a new house, apart from all the focking memories these pieces of furniture bring to me, apart from anywhere I laid with her, but I will the pictures of my children, they are the best thing that ever happened to me and whoever is going to love me will understand it.