thanks for all the comments and support. Things have gone worse, I did send her a message telling her I thought her behaviour was despicable and she was a lousy wife and mother (yes I was freaking inspired there but I let my emotions run wild) and she passed it on to her L. I have been warned by my L because of domestic violence so I am backing off totally. Basically, all the things I thought she would never do, she is doing.
We have been communicating via email and yesterday afternoon I spend some time with the children which was great for me. S6 told me we are separated because I was "bad with mommy" which was very hard to hear but I calmly told her I was never bad, only nervous and it will never happen again.
If I try to talk to her about the information I got on her going out wild she will ignore me, she treats me like a dog again. Yesterday when I dropped the kids we met at her elevator and her words were "It was back by 21 not 21:15 and do not ever come up my elevator" then she tried to take the kids and leave but I stopped her to kiss them goodbye.
I talked to my L. She recommended I dont file because we are very young and have young kids but if the things my friends told me are true I want to file. I would never do this to my spouse, ever, I would divorce first and I cannot understand she does it. I know for sure my S6 wants me to keep fighting.
I have spent the last 3 nights sleeping intermittently, I woke up today thinking about sending her an email to ask for clarifications but is only going to make me look weak. I am so tired of being treated this way. what should I do?
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Me 29 W:29 M: 5yrs T:10yrs S:6 yrs S:1 yr BD: "I want a D" 08/09/19 Sep: 10/27/19
