I needed to write today before going to sleep. I heard yesterday from a very good friend that W made out with a friend of a friend last winter. Apparently she wanted something more but he freaked out by the idea of her having two children. This has been confirmed by someone I really trust.
I have tried to face W today via telephone. I wanted to give her an ultimatum and say if I do not hear in two weeks about our M and her stand, I will start the D process and before I could finish she answered "I am not getting back with you" and she hanged up. I tried to call a couple of times without an answer and finally I sent her a message telling her I will not have an open M and I will file if I do not hear from her.
I love my children and want to fight for this but I still have some pride. You might say as many friends oh she is free as you are separated and you need to accept it. Sorry but I cannot be married to a person who does not share basic principles as these ones with me. I would never do that, even if we had problems heavy enough. I feel like filling, now what? I tell my W I will file for D in 15 days and obviously she is not going to say anything in that time.
I am very lost today, this hurts beyond all the cr@p she has told me before. I dont want my children to know I filed but I feel this is too much. We had two days when she talked to me about money only, now she is back to I hate you and do not even talk to me if it is not about the kids. I cannot take this anymore, she is out there doing the hell she wants and I am supposed to have zero love for myself and sacrifice my happiness for our family. I wanted my ultimatum to be serious and once again she disrespects me at my face, not even that she could hear in person.
Last edited by Pack_19; 08/31/2011:01 PM.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Me 29 W:29 M: 5yrs T:10yrs S:6 yrs S:1 yr BD: "I want a D" 08/09/19 Sep: 10/27/19
