Tonight, I finally headed to the beach after work. D at first wanted to come, then changed her mind. It was surprising to see how many people were getting there at 5:30 like me.
I sat in the sand, ate dinner and read a book. I watched the waves, the flying kites and the windsurfers. H did not enter my thoughts as I have tried to mentally intercept thoughts regarding him and focus on something else.
He came home earlier when I was home for lunch and went straight to the bedroom and closed the door. When I left for the beach after work he was there. I just came home about a half hour ago and he’s in there.
Tonight, I will make plans for things tomorrow and a grocery list.
