Do he think he wants you to be the one to pull cord? So he looks like he is the one who gave it all and tried?
Like LH said, you are over analyzing because you are very fearful of losing him. To have this work in the long run, you need know your own value and worth. If he does choose to walk again, know that is not the worst thing in the world, because you are worthy of a faithful committed partner who loves and values you. And you would not want to be with someone who doesn’t .
