Thanks for the birthday wishes everyone. The day was alright for the most part. Didn't do to much. Mostly cleaning my house lol. There is still so much stuff of hers still her just in the way. I'm trying to reorganize everything make it my space but its a pain to say the least not knowing what she might show up and decide to take.
My parents bought me a new sectional though to replace the couch she took and the one I always hated. I'm really happy with it. I had dinner with them and my siblings it was nice, simple.
Last few days have felt good. Work is busy. Losing another team member so our 5 man team is now down to 2 with no signs of hiring reoccurring any time soon. Had a very nice conversation today with a co worker. She helped me to see some perspectives I never considered to a few things in my life. Also said no matter what for as long as shes known me even during all of this when I hiding it and after I told her, I am always smiling. Always trying to make everyone around be comfortable. I almost didn't know what to make of that bit. Why do I smile even when my world is upside down?
But I don't mind people at work knowing anymore. I don't offer it buts its not a secret either. For a long time I couldn't get the words out without breaking and now it just is.
