So today, I worked. When I came home D25 was on a conference call and H was in the bedroom, door closed.
I got changed, and I did 30 minutes exercise. When I was done, D was done and she left to see a friend from a distance, I took my shower, made dinner, read some and watched some tv. During this time, D came home and joined me. I heard H get up to use the restroom, but he never ventured out where we were.
I realized he has no where to go. His friends have families and jobs. His OW is in another country. He literally leaves for work early, and stays out and when he has no where left to go he comes home. His dad, who I can write a book on, lives in a nearby city and H doesn’t even visit him.
How hard this must be for him, to be so closed off, self imposed, but still. I did what I would do if he was eating with me or not. I also may have been laughing at my book, without a care in the world.
A friend of mine told me the water at the beach is warm here, so I think tomorrow afternoon I will head there,
Anyway, my thoughts tonight, as much as this is excruciatingly hard, I think it’s is worse for him.
