Today is my birthday I turn 29. For the past 13 years I've been woken up in the middle of the night to be wished a happy birthday from my wife. She always wanted to be the first to say something but also waited until the actual time I was born.
Hope you had a great birthday! Sorry W wasn't there for you this time, I'm sure there's some hurt there. But try to look back on those times with fondness while making some new memories!
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5 months since bomb drop in 3 days. She moved out over a month ago. I've been no contact since.
Great, stick to it!
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I know she's out with different guys most of the week. She has a tendency to frequent the bar that she knows my family basically live at.
Sounds like she's doing the GGW thing. Just maintain no contact. If your family is trying to fill you in on what she's up to, just ask them to please refrain. It's for the best if you know nothing about it. It will help you to move on faster.
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I'm still just trying to focus on whatever I can. I go out and about as much as possible. Clean and work on house stuff at home. Back to regular time at the office now so that keeps me busy most of the days. I don't hurt as much all the time anymore and rarely cry like I use too.
That all sounds good and like your recovery is on the right track.
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I read through a box of cards last night virtually all the years we were together. Was looking for some old ticket stubs for a frame I was putting together mostly. Its funny how devoted someone can be in the past. How easy it is to make promises and eventually break them.
Yes it is bizarre how radically people can change. Every once in a while I'll run across an old card from my XW, when I read them it just makes me wonder what happened to that person that thought the world of me and thought she would die without me. We were absolutely crazy about each other! It's just a mystery.
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For the first time in over decade I have no idea what the next year of my life is for. I have no real goals or ambitions. I really hope someday that feeling fades. That there is a purpose again.
It's OK to just be in neutral for a while. There's no rule that says you've always got to have some big goals to pursue, sometimes you have to take it easy. Look at the next year as a clean slate ready for a new story to be written on it.