WW post D (Thanks BenB part 4)

[Mumin]

Hey Sandi,

Thanks for your response!

I guess it depends on the definition of Wayward.
To me that real waywardness is what my W was full of about 6 months ago.
Completely selfish and not a care in the world, not even aware of what kind of turmoil she is causing.
Fog. Blindness. Selfishness. And a super addictive rush that everything is about.

Lately my W has shown much more kindness and awareness of everything.
However, as I said she is very juvenile and in a way that is my fault.
I did ALL of the grown up things in our time together. ALL of it!
She is in for an enormous amount of life lessons...

But back to waywardness.
When thinking about if I guess you could put it on a scale.
May be my W is a 1 or a 2 out of 5.
Still driven strongly by her rush, but she HAS realized her behavior has consequences and she is aware. I see it.
She is prioritizing the kids more as well.
Though, while reading through other sitches I realize I haven't gotten that much of the verbal attack. Not much at all.
So maybe her waywardness is still there. She's just realized she can do it without me seeing it.

Anyway it doesn't really matter that much for me. There is on way forward.
For the kids though I really wish she owns her s**t and continues to get it together.